how am i the lucky one?

i’ve written about waiting before. like september 17th 2013, i am now waiting. the life-on-hold- kind of waiting. i’ve even taken to scientific versions of self help books. positivity by barbara fredrickson authentic happiness by martin seligman flourish by martin seligman happier by tal ben-shahar stuck in a waiting rut, however, what has calmed me […]

these nights never seem to go to plan

i woke up with ketones and i’m feeling pretty shit-tastic. right now. every keyboard button i press takes a little more effort every stroke requires a deliberate action nothing comes natural except to sit, uncomfortably, and stare at the television while i pretend to pay attention. this is only moderate, it has been worse. it […]

let me share this whole new world with you

there is much debate in the diabetes online (and offline) community about whether a person with diabetes ought to be considered or consider one self, “disabled”. sharing my position on this is something i’ve been very weary of because my feeling is that it goes against the grain of the majority rule. but alas, here […]

i was left to my own devices

i’ve been experimenting with writing lately. finding various channels to sort of ‘start fresh’ like you would in a new city. it’s been a great exploration so far, and a very personal one. so far, my writing has centered on itself. yes. i’ve been writing about writing. but not like how-to’s or do’s and don’ts. […]

i will sit up in the saddle of the storm

from yesterday to today, i move from then to now, in an attempt to self actualize my wishes to feel more full. with humility and strength, i will begin to redefine my definitions of the actions which are a point of self-pride, self-fufilling prophecy, and me-ness. here i go, from here to there: introspection – […]

so show me family, all the blood that i will bleed

have you ever been catching up with an old friend, a friend from way way back when, and they tell you a story that involves you, but one that you can’t remember? maybe their story paints you in an unfavorable light. they tell you about how you tricked them into something, how you scared them, […]

can’t take my eyes off of you

pictured: my grandmother, betty gabel, type 2 insulin-dependent diabetic i’ve been trying to write this post for a while, trying to find the best way to articulate the meaning behind the conversation i am about to tell you about in a way that accurately depicts the complex nature of the topic. i’ve rolled it on […]

and all the roads we have to walk are winding

Diabetes Blog Week 2013: Day three i forgot to check my blood sugar for a while, back in 2010. maybe it was burnout, maybe it was laziness. frustration. acting out. rebellion. maybe it was one of those twisted unconscious attempts to avoid the feeling of failure by semi-purposefully not putting forth effort. regardless of the […]

i’m a wild one, ou yeah, i’m a wild one

have you ever felt an overwhelming need to just get out of somewhere? only, you aren’t sure what you’re running from or where ‘far enough’ is? you don’t know what you need from the distance, but it is the only fix you can think of for whatever it is that is happening in you to […]