happiness is a warm gun

jesse (pictured above) just leaned over from his desk, parting from his lecture slide review, to ask, how do you respond to, ‘uncontrolled diabetic.’ with a bug-eyed expression, i replied, ‘not well at all.’ he went on to explain that in his class, the phrase is everywhere. he has been by my side long enough […]

just around the river bend

i’ve been hand-writing blog posts. secrets abounding, and projects evolving. life secrets. dream secrets. all the secrets. one of my best friends, mike lawson, told me about how easy it is to give up on an idea if you allow yourself to get credit for it too early into it’s development. he said, ‘as soon […]

and the love for what you hide

benign. a word you hope to only use in benign situations, also known as the situations that are figurative in nature, or ones that are devoid of the possibility of cancer. it’s nothing. nearly three months ago, i felt a lump in my breast. it began with 30 days of ‘it will probably go away’ […]

these nights never seem to go to plan

i woke up with ketones and i’m feeling pretty shit-tastic. right now. every keyboard button i press takes a little more effort every stroke requires a deliberate action nothing comes natural except to sit, uncomfortably, and stare at the television while i pretend to pay attention. this is only moderate, it has been worse. it […]

something only we know

welcome to medicine x. you, sit in a room filled with powerful, strong headed people living with life circumstances you really can only begin to imagine and you listen. you try and be a sponge while also lending hugs and handshakes, you might meet the same person five times. load up your twitter, tweetdeck, tweetchat, […]

let me share this whole new world with you

there is much debate in the diabetes online (and offline) community about whether a person with diabetes ought to be considered or consider one self, “disabled”. sharing my position on this is something i’ve been very weary of because my feeling is that it goes against the grain of the majority rule. but alas, here […]

wake up where the clouds are far behind me

ever been asked to describe yourself in three words? maybe a friend asked you? maybe you were in an interview? filling out a graduate school application? perhaps you felt like you needed to be really creative, and you knew that just listing ‘creative’ wasn’t creative enough. you wanted to make the reader laugh, so that […]

i live in a big blue house, but not really.

from point A to point B. first post.  Poor choice of house paint or fabulous unexpected blues “i have diabetes, and that’s chill” moment?  Let’s say both. On my way to meet with a small group of beautiful, talented, etc., etc, diabetic girls. Ironic to run into a big blue house? Absent from the photo […]