’cause there’s a million things to be

diabetes didn’t fit in.

it wasn’t the story;
we were,
and i liked that.

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diabetes blog week: day 3 (with puddles pity party)

what do you want to get off your chest? if given the opportunity, would you set free the bits that weigh on you? what if you let a secret slip your lips but felt no liberation? if your admission didn’t invite commentary, would you share then? today’s clean it out topic was a bit unnerving […]

good news AND an ask

have you ever felt an immediate need to share upon the receipt of good news? you: got a promotion, or were selected to win an award, or found out your blood work came back showcasing the rigor with which you tried to improve your health since your last visit to the doctor. maybe you reached […]

happiness is a warm gun

jesse (pictured above) just leaned over from his desk, parting from his lecture slide review, to ask, how do you respond to, ‘uncontrolled diabetic.’ with a bug-eyed expression, i replied, ‘not well at all.’ he went on to explain that in his class, the phrase is everywhere. he has been by my side long enough […]

just around the river bend

i’ve been hand-writing blog posts. secrets abounding, and projects evolving. life secrets. dream secrets. all the secrets. one of my best friends, mike lawson, told me about how easy it is to give up on an idea if you allow yourself to get credit for it too early into it’s development. he said, ‘as soon […]

bother me tomorrow, today, i’ll buy no sorrows

when today rolls around each year, i wonder what i shall do, explore how i should feel. still diabetic. i sit here, on the day marking the start of my fourteenth year post diagnosis, and question… should i feel: thankful for the life i’ve sustained because of medication? grateful to the scientists (banting) who made […]

it’s beginning to look a lot like…

like pain, it is a feeling i forget between occurrences. it is sweeping, it takes me over entirely, and i well up inside. every so often, i feel a glimpse of what is to come an acknowledgment of the fact that in my life i will ‘do something’ …something… remarkable. in waves, it approaches. and […]

these nights never seem to go to plan

i woke up with ketones and i’m feeling pretty shit-tastic. right now. every keyboard button i press takes a little more effort every stroke requires a deliberate action nothing comes natural except to sit, uncomfortably, and stare at the television while i pretend to pay attention. this is only moderate, it has been worse. it […]

ground control to major tom

ever come face to face with someone harboring a radically different perspective on diabetes? one that doesn’t jive with yours? one that you wish you didn’t still hear? one that takes just a little something from you? one that hurts your heart and reminds you of how much work there is still to do? ever […]

and everything he sees is blue

big blue test time is one of my favorite times of the year. an external reason to get my blood pumping and exercise. today, i submitted two big blue tests and it wasn’t as challenging as i thought it would be. it wasn’t as grueling as i imagined. in fact, it felt really…good. today i […]