how am i the lucky one?

i’ve written about waiting before. like september 17th 2013, i am now waiting. the life-on-hold- kind of waiting. i’ve even taken to scientific versions of self help books. positivity by barbara fredrickson authentic happiness by martin seligman flourish by martin seligman happier by tal ben-shahar stuck in a waiting rut, however, what has calmed me […]

the lion sleeps tonight

a1c a1c, here we go again. feeling a little stuck: habit changes, diet changes, exercise additions a1c same same same. i know nothing as demoralizing as changing your diabetes habits and not seeing any diabetes change. it is like trying to dig a hole in cement with a rubber shovel. stressful and even while putting […]

Diabetes Blog Week 2014: Day 3

that was my first diabetes blog. A Bit of a Written Advantage i started it when i was 20 and kept it a secret until now. i did so because it reveals a darkened heart and a troubled soul i didn’t share it with my parents i didn’t share it with my friends i am […]

Diabetes Blog Week 2014: Day 2

send me well wishes, not tricks up your sleeve because right when i need you, you also need me there’s no changing colors, no charging up dues, no market impressions, no turning up clues i test, you trial, as our turbulence goes on for lightyears, discomfort and woes you never asked for permission, to park […]

when everything’s made to be broken, i just want you to know who i am

my cousin got married last weekend. i went to the home where i grew up before hand because it was en route. i’m not sure what inspired me to begin poking around my old stuff, but i ended up with a book of poetry in my hands. it is more like a stack of papers […]

cause i don’t shine, if you don’t shine

how long does it take to be considered a veteran? how long until one can be honored with a certificate of completion? what governing institution would offer the PhD in diabetes management that each pwd has been working their buns of steel off to achieve? i’m 23. i might be wise beyond my years, but […]

remember what you told me

august 15th. that’s today. … yes. one year ago today was my first day of work at the diabetes hands foundation office. i dressed up in heels and fancy clothes. i began to learn about all of the magic of the dhf and the magicians behind the curtain. what started as a great opportunity, is […]

wake up where the clouds are far behind me

ever been asked to describe yourself in three words? maybe a friend asked you? maybe you were in an interview? filling out a graduate school application? perhaps you felt like you needed to be really creative, and you knew that just listing ‘creative’ wasn’t creative enough. you wanted to make the reader laugh, so that […]

she’s got a ticket to ride, but she don’t care

i need a machete. but we will get to that later. have you ever had an experience so remarkable that you reflect immediately? the reflection sounds like poetry in your mind. right there. instant, beautiful, reflection. but then the experience is so gripping that alas, you forget. you forget that perfect jaw dropping string of […]


this is a post i have been hoping i wouldn’t have to write, the loss i wish i wasn’t experiencing, the type of news no one hopes to share. my longest living relative passed away last wednesday. her name was betty lee gabel and she was my grandma. in her memory, i would like to […]