to be quite honest, i’m not keen on admitting this… B….U….T…. what i choose not to share is often my pain. i want to be strong. for my family, for my self, for my future. i share my trials when i’m past them. i suppose i do not share while feeling hurt because i know […]
jesse (pictured above) just leaned over from his desk, parting from his lecture slide review, to ask, how do you respond to, ‘uncontrolled diabetic.’ with a bug-eyed expression, i replied, ‘not well at all.’ he went on to explain that in his class, the phrase is everywhere. he has been by my side long enough […]
when today rolls around each year, i wonder what i shall do, explore how i should feel. still diabetic. i sit here, on the day marking the start of my fourteenth year post diagnosis, and question… should i feel: thankful for the life i’ve sustained because of medication? grateful to the scientists (banting) who made […]
this post is not drug related, despite the title. or, well, i guess it is. insulin is a drug isn’t it? correction to that first line there: this post is indeed drug related. LIFE UPDATE i moved to mesa, arizona on sunday night. yes, i did mean to write night. we left berkeley, california around […]
that was my first diabetes blog. A Bit of a Written Advantage i started it when i was 20 and kept it a secret until now. i did so because it reveals a darkened heart and a troubled soul i didn’t share it with my parents i didn’t share it with my friends i am […]
there is much debate in the diabetes online (and offline) community about whether a person with diabetes ought to be considered or consider one self, “disabled”. sharing my position on this is something i’ve been very weary of because my feeling is that it goes against the grain of the majority rule. but alas, here […]
from yesterday to today, i move from then to now, in an attempt to self actualize my wishes to feel more full. with humility and strength, i will begin to redefine my definitions of the actions which are a point of self-pride, self-fufilling prophecy, and me-ness. here i go, from here to there: introspection – […]
when i opened the email invitation to the medtronic diabetes advocates forum for 2014, i looked to mike lawson sitting next to me and said ‘did you get invited to this? maybe they meant to send it to you.’ within the diabetes space i have a lot to learn and a lot to say, but […]
how long does it take to be considered a veteran? how long until one can be honored with a certificate of completion? what governing institution would offer the PhD in diabetes management that each pwd has been working their buns of steel off to achieve? i’m 23. i might be wise beyond my years, but […]
august 15th. that’s today. … yes. one year ago today was my first day of work at the diabetes hands foundation office. i dressed up in heels and fancy clothes. i began to learn about all of the magic of the dhf and the magicians behind the curtain. what started as a great opportunity, is […]
Unexpected Blues 