have you ever felt an immediate need to share upon the receipt of good news? you: got a promotion, or were selected to win an award, or found out your blood work came back showcasing the rigor with which you tried to improve your health since your last visit to the doctor. maybe you reached […]
when today rolls around each year, i wonder what i shall do, explore how i should feel. still diabetic. i sit here, on the day marking the start of my fourteenth year post diagnosis, and question… should i feel: thankful for the life i’ve sustained because of medication? grateful to the scientists (banting) who made […]
benign. a word you hope to only use in benign situations, also known as the situations that are figurative in nature, or ones that are devoid of the possibility of cancer. it’s nothing. nearly three months ago, i felt a lump in my breast. it began with 30 days of ‘it will probably go away’ […]
i woke up with ketones and i’m feeling pretty shit-tastic. right now. every keyboard button i press takes a little more effort every stroke requires a deliberate action nothing comes natural except to sit, uncomfortably, and stare at the television while i pretend to pay attention. this is only moderate, it has been worse. it […]
ever come face to face with someone harboring a radically different perspective on diabetes? one that doesn’t jive with yours? one that you wish you didn’t still hear? one that takes just a little something from you? one that hurts your heart and reminds you of how much work there is still to do? ever […]
big blue test time is one of my favorite times of the year. an external reason to get my blood pumping and exercise. today, i submitted two big blue tests and it wasn’t as challenging as i thought it would be. it wasn’t as grueling as i imagined. in fact, it felt really…good. today i […]
on day 0 of medicine x, i, along with other epatients, attended and participated in a special event called “partnering for health” sponsored by eli lilly and company. the day revolved around clinical trials. hearing from the patients who may take part in said trials was the goal of the day. eli lilly wanted us […]
in the wake of the great and powerful stanford medicine x conference, i want to share with you a recent trip i took. it all started in the bar where i tend. i’m doing my thing at sleepy dog brewery, pouring and delivering beers, when a woman walks in. erica. she has been in before, […]
struck i was, by the call to depart from violent language number four. right there. ilana jacqueline typed the words i couldn’t shape in a blog post. pushing my chronic pressure points, laughing and crying and relating. i wanted to reach out and hug her. you’re not living with chronic illness if you’re “fighting” it, […]
this post is not drug related, despite the title. or, well, i guess it is. insulin is a drug isn’t it? correction to that first line there: this post is indeed drug related. LIFE UPDATE i moved to mesa, arizona on sunday night. yes, i did mean to write night. we left berkeley, california around […]
Unexpected Blues 