i’ve been hand-writing blog posts. secrets abounding, and projects evolving. life secrets. dream secrets. all the secrets. one of my best friends, mike lawson, told me about how easy it is to give up on an idea if you allow yourself to get credit for it too early into it’s development. he said, ‘as soon […]
when today rolls around each year, i wonder what i shall do, explore how i should feel. still diabetic. i sit here, on the day marking the start of my fourteenth year post diagnosis, and question… should i feel: thankful for the life i’ve sustained because of medication? grateful to the scientists (banting) who made […]
like pain, it is a feeling i forget between occurrences. it is sweeping, it takes me over entirely, and i well up inside. every so often, i feel a glimpse of what is to come an acknowledgment of the fact that in my life i will ‘do something’ …something… remarkable. in waves, it approaches. and […]
benign. a word you hope to only use in benign situations, also known as the situations that are figurative in nature, or ones that are devoid of the possibility of cancer. it’s nothing. nearly three months ago, i felt a lump in my breast. it began with 30 days of ‘it will probably go away’ […]
i woke up with ketones and i’m feeling pretty shit-tastic. right now. every keyboard button i press takes a little more effort every stroke requires a deliberate action nothing comes natural except to sit, uncomfortably, and stare at the television while i pretend to pay attention. this is only moderate, it has been worse. it […]
ever come face to face with someone harboring a radically different perspective on diabetes? one that doesn’t jive with yours? one that you wish you didn’t still hear? one that takes just a little something from you? one that hurts your heart and reminds you of how much work there is still to do? ever […]
so you have heard of medicine x, the conference at stanford university that truly integrates patient voice and perspective, the conference that trends on twitter because the online component is exponential and maybe you have thought about applying maybe you decided not to because you aren’t sure you have something unique to contribute maybe you […]
i’ve been working out my applications for doctoral programs as of late, crossing off all the little ticks: pre-apply. identify programs of interest 1. complete online app 2. acquire both official and unofficial transcripts 3. write many versions of personal statement 4. appeal to current professors for ‘the right fit’ 5. connect with writers of […]
on day 0 of medicine x, i, along with other epatients, attended and participated in a special event called “partnering for health” sponsored by eli lilly and company. the day revolved around clinical trials. hearing from the patients who may take part in said trials was the goal of the day. eli lilly wanted us […]
in the wake of the great and powerful stanford medicine x conference, i want to share with you a recent trip i took. it all started in the bar where i tend. i’m doing my thing at sleepy dog brewery, pouring and delivering beers, when a woman walks in. erica. she has been in before, […]
Unexpected Blues 