i’ve been experimenting with writing lately. finding various channels to sort of ‘start fresh’ like you would in a new city. it’s been a great exploration so far, and a very personal one. so far, my writing has centered on itself. yes. i’ve been writing about writing. but not like how-to’s or do’s and don’ts. […]
it’s the stillness of an empty hospital waiting area that brings me to tears for the first time since grabbing jesse’s hand when the doctor uttered the words, “you’ll be admitted.” at that time, both jesse and i equated the words to dollar signs. how could we afford this? would his insurance cover the expenses […]
Originally published on my Medium page. It is with a rhythm that I scribe, a cadence one better. With pauses and causes and intentions, I spill. I want to tell you how I feel before I tell you what it is I’m reacting to because that is how I make meaning from surroundings. I want […]
over the weekend, my father and i sat down for a heart to heart. not the kind of h2h you have when you are in trouble or when bad news is being shared. this was the heart to heart you have with a friend just simply, to share. my dad, or ‘faja’ as i like […]
i care about you. i know it is bold to say that and you might not even believe it… but i do. maybe we have never engaged before. okay: i’ve never met you. you’ve never met me. we have never laid eyes on one another. i don’t know where or how you live, or how […]
from yesterday to today, i move from then to now, in an attempt to self actualize my wishes to feel more full. with humility and strength, i will begin to redefine my definitions of the actions which are a point of self-pride, self-fufilling prophecy, and me-ness. here i go, from here to there: introspection – […]
when i opened the email invitation to the medtronic diabetes advocates forum for 2014, i looked to mike lawson sitting next to me and said ‘did you get invited to this? maybe they meant to send it to you.’ within the diabetes space i have a lot to learn and a lot to say, but […]
there are nine drafts in my wordpress. nine attempts at constructing something beautiful. nine decisions to not follow through. nine moments of overly dismissive self-editing. nine works deemed inadmissible, unworthy, empty. nine potential pathways to connection, lost. okay, because i am so good at math, i know that nine times nine times nine times nine […]
my cousin got married last weekend. i went to the home where i grew up before hand because it was en route. i’m not sure what inspired me to begin poking around my old stuff, but i ended up with a book of poetry in my hands. it is more like a stack of papers […]
my panic was suspended. home-treat. no hospital. –> lungs, you may inflate. last friday, after of a string of not-so-thought-through decisions and indecisions, i became a ketonic-mega-monster. that’s a thing, right? the highly unfortunate sequence of events: i had a beer the evening before around 11pm, after an intense two hours of dodgeball (one game […]
Unexpected Blues 