send me well wishes, not tricks up your sleeve because right when i need you, you also need me there’s no changing colors, no charging up dues, no market impressions, no turning up clues i test, you trial, as our turbulence goes on for lightyears, discomfort and woes you never asked for permission, to park […]
i’ve been experimenting with writing lately. finding various channels to sort of ‘start fresh’ like you would in a new city. it’s been a great exploration so far, and a very personal one. so far, my writing has centered on itself. yes. i’ve been writing about writing. but not like how-to’s or do’s and don’ts. […]
it’s the stillness of an empty hospital waiting area that brings me to tears for the first time since grabbing jesse’s hand when the doctor uttered the words, “you’ll be admitted.” at that time, both jesse and i equated the words to dollar signs. how could we afford this? would his insurance cover the expenses […]
Originally published on my Medium page. It is with a rhythm that I scribe, a cadence one better. With pauses and causes and intentions, I spill. I want to tell you how I feel before I tell you what it is I’m reacting to because that is how I make meaning from surroundings. I want […]
from yesterday to today, i move from then to now, in an attempt to self actualize my wishes to feel more full. with humility and strength, i will begin to redefine my definitions of the actions which are a point of self-pride, self-fufilling prophecy, and me-ness. here i go, from here to there: introspection – […]
i’ve resisted ‘the darkness’ in every other way possible. when i was in middle school, the stores that i shopped at provided more insight about me than what i said or how i spoke. 8th grade playground rule: where your clothes come from and how they fit your body is indicative of what is inside, […]
attending the medtronic diabetes advocates forum came with everything you would expect: great big hunks of information, meaningful connections, the forging of new friendships, open discussion, action plans, boats of laughter, and down-right exhaustion. coming home from the weekend, i said to my partner, jesse, “that was a lot of diabetes.” feeling slightly bent out […]
this is a post i have been hoping i wouldn’t have to write, the loss i wish i wasn’t experiencing, the type of news no one hopes to share. my longest living relative passed away last wednesday. her name was betty lee gabel and she was my grandma. in her memory, i would like to […]
Unexpected Blues 