Diabetes Blog Week 2014: Day 2

send me well wishes, not tricks up your sleeve because right when i need you, you also need me there’s no changing colors, no charging up dues, no market impressions, no turning up clues i test, you trial, as our turbulence goes on for lightyears, discomfort and woes you never asked for permission, to park […]

Rocking Coachella With Diabetes

today i am heading out to coachella. it is a music festival in indio, CA near los angeles. it is four days of dancing in the hot hot sun. before i get to the diabetes part of this post, i must disclose that the photo above came about because our only housemate who couldn’t attend […]

faces come out of the rain

it’s the stillness of an empty hospital waiting area that brings me to tears for the first time since grabbing jesse’s hand when the doctor uttered the words, “you’ll be admitted.” at that time, both jesse and i equated the words to dollar signs. how could we afford this? would his insurance cover the expenses […]

but i never saw the good side of the city

i’ve resisted ‘the darkness’ in every other way possible. when i was in middle school, the stores that i shopped at provided more insight about me than what i said or how i spoke. 8th grade playground rule: where your clothes come from and how they fit your body is indicative of what is inside, […]

and i know i’m gonna be okay

there are nine drafts in my wordpress. nine attempts at constructing something beautiful. nine decisions to not follow through. nine moments of overly dismissive self-editing. nine works deemed inadmissible, unworthy, empty. nine potential pathways to connection, lost. okay, because i am so good at math, i know that nine times nine times nine times nine […]

when everything’s made to be broken, i just want you to know who i am

my cousin got married last weekend. i went to the home where i grew up before hand because it was en route. i’m not sure what inspired me to begin poking around my old stuff, but i ended up with a book of poetry in my hands. it is more like a stack of papers […]

i just wanted you to let me in

my panic was suspended. home-treat. no hospital. –> lungs, you may inflate. last friday, after of a string of not-so-thought-through decisions and indecisions, i became a ketonic-mega-monster. that’s a thing, right? the highly unfortunate sequence of events: i had a beer the evening before around 11pm, after an intense two hours of dodgeball (one game […]

cause i don’t shine, if you don’t shine

how long does it take to be considered a veteran? how long until one can be honored with a certificate of completion? what governing institution would offer the PhD in diabetes management that each pwd has been working their buns of steel off to achieve? i’m 23. i might be wise beyond my years, but […]

boop-oop-a-doop

this is a post i have been hoping i wouldn’t have to write, the loss i wish i wasn’t experiencing, the type of news no one hopes to share. my longest living relative passed away last wednesday. her name was betty lee gabel and she was my grandma. in her memory, i would like to […]