from yesterday to today, i move from then to now, in an attempt to self actualize my wishes to feel more full. with humility and strength, i will begin to redefine my definitions of the actions which are a point of self-pride, self-fufilling prophecy, and me-ness. here i go, from here to there: introspection – […]
i’ve resisted ‘the darkness’ in every other way possible. when i was in middle school, the stores that i shopped at provided more insight about me than what i said or how i spoke. 8th grade playground rule: where your clothes come from and how they fit your body is indicative of what is inside, […]
attending the medtronic diabetes advocates forum came with everything you would expect: great big hunks of information, meaningful connections, the forging of new friendships, open discussion, action plans, boats of laughter, and down-right exhaustion. coming home from the weekend, i said to my partner, jesse, “that was a lot of diabetes.” feeling slightly bent out […]
wordless wednesday Our difficulties of the moment must always be dealt with somehow, but our permanent difficulties are difficulties of every moment. T. S. Eliot
when i opened the email invitation to the medtronic diabetes advocates forum for 2014, i looked to mike lawson sitting next to me and said ‘did you get invited to this? maybe they meant to send it to you.’ within the diabetes space i have a lot to learn and a lot to say, but […]
do you have a relative who sends you a little som’somthin’ every holiday? just a small thing that sends love and says ‘i care’. perhaps it is the same thing every year, like a holiday card, for example. when you were little, you didn’t know it, but a tradition was being built. every year you […]
did you imagine nsync right there? jumping about with their hands stretched out, their arms swinging from left to right hands clasping like a beak clamping and opening clamping and opening they are wearing expressions crafted by the feeling of being wronged. if that is what you got, that isn’t how i meant it, although […]
habits fade in and out, slowly. like riding your bike everyday, for example. everyday turns into every other day. every other day turns into every third day. every third day turns into once a week. then once a week fades into, ‘whoa, it’s been a while’. anyone else have a tendency to treat diabetes like […]
last thursday was the first thanksgiving not spent with my immediate family. preparing for the last four or five thanksgivings have been gut-wrenching stressful and i don’t mean the cooking, nor the food shopping in crowds. i don’t mean the organizing of who sits where, nor even counting cards. i don’t mean anything diabetes related […]
there are nine drafts in my wordpress. nine attempts at constructing something beautiful. nine decisions to not follow through. nine moments of overly dismissive self-editing. nine works deemed inadmissible, unworthy, empty. nine potential pathways to connection, lost. okay, because i am so good at math, i know that nine times nine times nine times nine […]
Unexpected Blues 